FQ: Hi, can you please post this anonymously for me?

I am the proud mother of two amazing little boys (8 & 9 years old). I'm currently 16 weeks pregnant with di/di twins. I was sure that I would end up with at least one girl- FINALLY! Recently, we had the Informaseq free cell DNA test done and my little jelly beans came back at no risk Trisomy 13, 18, or 21 (thank God) and I also found out that a Y chromosome is present, meaning at least one baby is a boy. Now I am consumed w ... ith guilt because I am having gender disappointment for the first time (even though I don't know yet if BOTH are boys or just one). I'm selfishly worried that I won't get the little girl that I've dreamt about for years. Instead of concentrating on what's important, that they are healthy, I'm crying like a baby because I had my heart set on girls. I feel like such a horrible person. I want to be excited, I really do, but I can't even bring myself to tell anyone because I can't even say it out loud without crying. I'm even second guessing finding out the other baby's sex because I'm scared to be so disappointed over a true blessing. I feel so ashamed to be feeling this way. Please tell me I'm not the only one that has had this happen. Could use some encouragement that this won't last long and I will soon be so focused on my healthy babies no matter what gender they are. flower girl collections with lace

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